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The disclaimer.
[25 Jul 2010|03:58pm]
[This journal is not real. It's fake and it's part of must_be_pop, a role playing community. I am not the real Emilie and I don't know her or anyone associated with her. I'm just a fan and this is just a game and I'm just having a little fun. This journal also happens to be friends only. If you're part of Must Be Pop add it and I'll add you back. Thanks and have a great day :D]
1 knew where the heart is.

The disclaimer.
I'm Thinking I'd Prefer Not To Be Rescued [18 Apr 2006|02:12pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

This will be a long one, that's just a warning in case you want to skip over it. I wouldn't blame you anyway, Em is having another problem, and I know it seems like what else could I possibly do now? What else could I possibly be going through? Haven't I been through everything? Isn't my life already a soap opera? Well we can add another one to the list.

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I've really needed Colin the past couple nights. I needed someone that I could talk to, but he wasn't the one. Jenny ended up coming over last night to help me take care of Riley and to talk to me and keep me company. I was so grateful for that. I can't thank her enough. When she left this morning she told me to call her if I needed anything. Scott's here. He flew all the way out from Boston last night. I spent a lot of last night crying in his arms. There's something about best friends that is different than anyone else. He completely understood me. He knew what to say, and he knew that right now all I needed was someone to be there for me. I actually felt like he wanted to help me. He's staying for a couple days.

Colin came by this morning. I was in the kitchen fixing a bottle for Riley. He didn't notice me in there when he first came in until I said "Hey..."

"Hey...Where's Riley?" he paused in front of the counter to talk to me for a second.

"She's in her crib."

"Did Scott stay here last night?"

"Yeah..he did. He's staying again tonight. He just went out to get a couple things this morning."

"I'm glad I came by now then." He rolled his eyes.


He walked into the nursery to check on Riley and he came out a few minutes later. "She's sleeping. I didn't want to bother her."

"Are you coming back by later?"

"I don't know yet."

"I want you to come home..." I fought back tears.

"I want to come home.." he came over to me and put his arms around me. "Are you ready to admit that you have a problem yet?"

I put my arms around him and started crying on his shoulder, nodding my head.

"That's something...but I still think you need a couple days to think about it." He rubbed my back.

"You told me all I had to do was admit it and you would come home!" I cried.

"I want you to ask me to help you."

"I..I.." I didn't know what to say I wanted help but I wasn't ready for it. There was still a huge part of me that didn't see anything wrong with what I was doing. This seems so much like the right thing right now and no one understands it.

"I'll see you in a few days then." He said and he kissed my cheek then pulled away and left without saying anything else.

I broke down in the kitchen after that.

<3 Em

9 knew where the heart is.

The disclaimer.
[15 Apr 2006|04:50pm]
I can't help but follow the trend.

Go annonymous and tell me anything, your secrets your thoughts about me, anything. Anything you ever wanted to say to me you can say it now.
22 knew where the heart is.

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